Deep Breath, and Go

Stressed. Starting with Spring Break, I have not stopped moving. California was a much-needed escape from reality, but it left me apathetic upon returning to Dallas. I just want to keep exploring. The next weekend, I journeyed down to New Orleans, and again I felt as though I could stay on the road forever and be content. 
Now that I'm home, settling back into my routine, classes and rehearsals are torturous. I spend the majority of them checking my phone, eating, or drawing. The past ten days, I have felt overwhelmed with the dreary list of tasks set before me. For some reason, I have not had the positive attitude toward them as I usually do. You see, I normally approach a challenge with the attitude that I can handle it; bring it on. But currently, I feel helpless, meak, robbed of control over my own life. 

I have got to snap out of it.

It's time to end this pity party.

Day 30

As Britney so eloquently puts it: "Oops, I did it again."

I missed Day 29! Tomorrow concludes my 30 days of blogging, so I'll try to make these last few posts good ones.

Yesterday I learned...that others help us make sense of our own lives.

When I'm alone, doubts about the present and anxieties about the future fill my head. But as soon as I talk with my mom, dad, sister, or best friend, it all makes sense. I come to peace with whatever is on my mind. It's reassurance that you're not alone in your struggles, a simple connection with another human being that makes life seem a little more manageable.
I am a stubborn, independent girl. But I am realizing that I am so much happier when I swallow my pride and ask for a little help.

Today's post is yet to come.

...and here it is:

Know yourself.

Know yourself so well that no one else can make you doubt yourself. Know what your opinions are before you share them with others. It feels so much easier to simply agree with whoever and whatever surrounds you on a moment-to-moment basis, but that, my friends, is wasting a life, a soul, and a highly capable mind.

So take charge. Don't let anyone tell you who you are or what you think.

Day 28

Today I learned...that it's better to live bold than look perfect.


This is something I've struggled with for the past three or four years. Girls constantly battle with their insecurities: weight, height, hair, skin...something's always "wrong."
Lately, I've been so stressed with school and projects that I haven't been taking care of my personal needs. My skin's a wreck, and I haven't had time to eat normal meals, instead resorting to on-the-go junk.
But you know what? Time heals everything. And any temporary sacrifices are worth the pay-off.
Besides, it's spring break time. Later, Texas!

Day 27

Today I learned...to always take vitamins after eating. Stomach ache from hell.
:(

Day 26

Today I learned...that comfort starts from the ground up. And the right pair of shoes makes all the difference.


Now that spring is creeping slowly upon Dallas, I am breaking in my first pair of Chaco's sandals. Wearing them instead of my constricting flats made the day's hike to and from school seem much shorter. 
I have put my poor feet through hell for years as a dancer and performer, and I have now brought a peace offering: arch support!