Lately I have been questioning the "addictions" I have. To list a few, I might say I am addicted to coffee, cigarettes, sweets, and men. These are things I turn to on a daily basis for comfort. But are they really addictions, or simply rituals that I perform out of habit?
I lean toward the latter.
addictionnoun1 his heroin addiction dependency, dependence, habit, problem.2 a slavish addiction to fashion devotion to, dedication to, obsessionwith, infatuation with, passion for, love of, mania for, enslavement to.
ritualnounan elaborate civic ritual ceremony, rite, ceremonial, observance; service,sacrament, liturgy, worship; act, practice, custom, tradition,convention, formality, procedure, protocol.
I am not a slave to my habits. I practice them daily out of obligation to my own sense of identity. These rituals of drinking coffee, smoking, eating sweets, and flirting with men are engrained into my daily behavior. They remind me of who I am: who I think myself to be. But I can change them if I so choose. A friend once told me that any change you wish to see in yourself should become "daily practice." One day at a time, you can change your rituals and therefore change your identity.No addiction is unconquerable.
"I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul."from "Invictus" by William Ernest Henley
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